Let Go

So I'm back at school.... *sigh* another year. I'm bummed I'm back here, but grateful that I'm somewhere. This summer was probably the best I had in a long time, and it was sad leaving it all behind. That's what growing up means though. Leaving things behind and moving on to things I have to do in life. Life has turned into one giant worry for me. Cam came down to Chicago with Graeme and Brian, and Cam made a good point. When we were little we didn't worry about anything like we do now. We have responsibilities now and worry about stuff we don't really need to worry about. Things were easy back then. He said, "Once we learned about the opposite sex things just went downhill from there." I think that's true a little bit. We set ourselves out there so much, and half the time it's for relationships with no meaning and with no real honest frienship. I miss having someone there to confide in and to show love toward me, but at the same time being single isn't all bad. I know what I want in a relationship and it will just take patience in order for me to wait for something that is truly worth waiting for. I want someone who is going to challenge me to be the person I was meant to be. Someone who doesn't need to be doing something all the time, but can have a good time sitting and just talking and taking in life. Appreciating things they have and not seeking things they think they need to be happy. I don't need to find him soon, because I know God has him picked out for me. I just need patience.
I've already gone through those kind of relationships where you think you regret it. But I really don't. Without those relationships, I never would have figured out what kind of man I need to be with. I learned a lot from my past, and I continuously learn from mistakes I make today. It's those types of relationships I will never regret because, although they weren't fulfilling or what I should have been doing, I got more out of them and learned more about myself, about God, and about life. So honestly, I thank God for those experiences and I thank the people who taught me so much. Another thing I realized is the way we feel like we're hurting when something bad happens in a relationship. I think the only reason why we feel sad or heart-broken isn't because the other person made us that way. I think it's because a lot of times, when relationships end it's because we know what kind of relationship we should be in and that wasn't it. We wish it was, and we can keep saying we'll save the other person or save the relationship... but it's not up to us. And that hurts us. There's only one thing to do. Let go and learn to trust Him.