There is Hope

There is a heart of such distress that I carry in this chest please reach out and caress in your pillowesque manner.

Front and center right here and right now I'm throwing in the towel I've committed too many fowls I've flown south.

My spirits turning sour I can't go through another hour, be my precious pretty pink petite flower that blooms in the night and leave me in the dark by your moonlight, no more fight. I never fought or so I thought and now I'm here on these knees distraught.

Crying out pretty please, pretty please take this disease turning these insides brown my smile turns to frown and my breathe smells like death.

Because I am dead to life and alive to something that I don't know if you would have me feel but this is for real and I need you right now, I need you right now.

So seal the deal with your stamp of regeneration and grow me up into a new creation taken from a tree and plucked from a vine, if it's my time to shine then shine your light on me so that everyone hurting can see that there is hope, that there is hope in a seemingly endless valley full of rotten fruit left behind from previous troops who are now in your mountains drinking directly from your fountains, oh save me a spot I will be there sooner than not, I'm picking up the pace and slowly starting to trot.

"There is Hope" by Bradley Hathaway

Sometimes I feel like I'm in that valley, and even trying to climb the walls to get out of it doesn't seem to help. My mind is the rotten fruit that keeps me clinging to my past and to my old ways that seem like they will never stop haunting me. When does that end? I'm tired of feeling like the only way to go is down, and never up. I'm tired of getting myself in situations I can't handle and don't even know how to get out of.

1 Corinthians 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

I have been really blind to the ways out of these situations, or it was my own wickedness that just chose to ignore God. At times it was one or the other, or even both.

I just need to rely on Him, and trust He's going to help me, and soon I'll be okay again.